me and cherlynn agree that this is a bastard(sorry dunno any other words to describe it) song.

Lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you (the worst line. trying to forget his ex by 'replacing' her with a new girl. thats utter bastard. stupid guy.)
I guess we never really moved on ( if he didnt move on, he shouldnt have started on a new relationship)
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful (then why say goodbye?? if he knew it was hard to be faithful, why hurt that new girl? idiot)
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes
I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue (still dare to say)
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you


went for fusion rally today at victory centre (sth like that) at tampines. wahaha met at church first before taking a coach down. waaah.. it was raining like crap! sooo heavy till the gates of the church were flooded!!! yucks! and a bunch of them actually WALKED in the MUDDY waters to the busstop!! eeww!!! lucky me,adora,kerpal and yixian were SMART enough to walk the other way. whees!

the rally was awesome! the pastor preached about servanthood. about Gos being the center of our lives and stuff. then towards the end, he talked about being broken hearted. and that really hit me. cause yes, today when i walked through the church gates, i felt broken. it took me a while to realise and FEEL belonged to the people at church. i dunno why. if God can mend broken hearts, why then does he feel this way? prayer works, but sometimes, i wish that prayers are immediate.

adora dearie said that maybe this is a sign from God that i should yoke more with christians. perhaps feeling second best is God's way of telling me that they dont take me seriously? but yet, the friendship bond i share with them cannot be replaced by my churchfriends. i seriously dun feel as belonged with my church friends as compared to my besties. yes adora dearie is nice. but thats about it. i dunno anyone else. well... not well enough to spill out details about my past or to share my problems with. its so depressing. maybe growing up in church really does make a difference. perhaps the amount of years you spend in youth really do count.

and i realised i dunno you. maybe we're not as close as i thought we were? i'm not mad. i'm just worried and disappointed. friends dun hurt each other. if i didnt care about you, i dun think i will be feeling down. you think the world revolves around you? you think you are hurting, you think you're the only one feeling sad? you're so wrong.