i look forward to cell every sunday
i look forward to service. the worshipping, the sermon...

but i dun look forward to the end of services. when people go into their group of friends and i just walk around, aimlessly, looking for people whom i know dun exist. in other words, i pretend to walk around to look for my friends.

yes. the amount of friends have multiplied. but i dunwant to make friends to say "hello" to. i want to make friends whom i can talk to. talk indepth stuff to. its important to share close bonds with friends from church, cause they will help you grow in your walk. but it's been so so hard. i know there's adora. but she has her own friends whom she is close to and at times, i really feel as though i should not be there. i really feel like a 3rd party. its not your fault dearie!! its just that i feel so out of place sometimes...

when people walk out of church, they have their friends and families. but why must i be the odd one out who has to walk alone?

the walk with God is hard. but i never knew it could be so hard...

i dun understand. how can i pray for my kids, when i myself am in need of prayer?
i'd honestly rather be a member of a cell, at least i feel taken care of...

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.